Sometimes i always asked myself, where have i gone wrong to receive all of this pain.
Sometimes it takes a lot courage to accept all this facts.
Have i erred anyone to bring upon this misery to me?
I have never felt so hurt before in my life up till today.
Even though today i have laughed so much in class,
at the same time having fun with my friends,
deep down i know,
there lies sorrow behind each smile.
Deep down there lies a little girl,
protecting herself from any harm,
keeping herself from anyone,
not allowing any one to enter or have place in her heart.
Not wanting to be hurt anymore,
not wanting to let any tears shed.
That little girl is surrounded by many thorns in her life,
even at the same time whilst she is sitting down.
She never asked for help,
but she sits down and ponder back on her own life.
How the journey of her life has been,
how painful it has been,
how miserable she has been.
She has been shedding tears for every tiny thing that she has come across,
how she is trying to brave through all this obstacles in her life.
She knows that no one will ever face the same life that she is facing,
and she knows that somewhere out there,
there is path of happiness which is for her.
She wants to be loved and appreciated for who she is,
but not by looking at her flaws.
She has too many flaws,
flaws that can be seen through her.
What she wants in her life now is to be successful, and be who she wants,
and lastly,
to be loved by the person that her heart has choosen
and to feel every tiny happiness empowering her life.
-lost a part of me
1/15/2009 11:45:00 pm
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